Filtered (not mum): A rest day

[lizziec]

I'm having something of a rest day today, as my Sundays in Canterbury have all been to some extent since this has all kicked off. We try to get everything errandy or houseworky done on Saturday so I can chill on Sunday, which is much needed.

Having said that, I woke up this morning crying after a dream in which my brother died of Cancer (why it was Phil and not mum I don't know), which wasn't the best start to a morning ever - waking up crying really sucks :/. Thankfully the rest of the day has improved on that and I'm feeling rather more rested than I did. Roast dinner tonight. MMmmm :)

After talking briefly to mum, and in a little more detail to Phil, (and going from advice from lots of people) I've decided to stay in Canterbury for a few days. Well, sort of, anyway.

The hospital will be calling tomorrow, hopefully with some idea of what the tumour is. If it's one that needs urgent treatment then I'll head up straight away (I'm "only" an hour away, and I'm packing first thing, just in case) and take her to the hospital. She'll probably need an hour to sort herself out properly anyway. If they say that it's not Urgent (for certain values of urgent anyway) I'll stay until Wednesday, heading up for the consult on Thursday at St Georges when we'll find out for sure.

With the worst case scenareo meaning driving up tomorrow morning, I'll at least get an extra night in my own bed with my own things, and that can't be bad. That's what I keep telling myself anyway, to help deal with the irrational guilt I feel at not heading back now, or first thing tomorrow for certain.

ETA: 12/07/11 No longer filtered

Comments

[barakta]

Dream sounds horrid, I wonder if it is reflecting 'and' anxiety as it were, your mum has cancer that's a known, but Phil doesn't and 'what if' even if it is currently unlikely etc. I've already said to the universe that it's unfair that your mum is worryingly ill when you lost your dad as a child! (I hope the universe listens else I'll have to dig out my baseball bats or something innit).

Glad you've managed to both 'get errandiness' and rest this weekend, annoying that there are any errands at all but keeping on top of those has to help brains or something. I hope you enjoyed your roast this evening.

I think your plan of staying at your place till needed is a good one, spoon preservation etc. Your mental health is important and if you can save some energy then that's good cos sometimes we know you won't be able to. That's plain sense and rationality - mental health spoons are just as valid as physical health spoons!

I hope that you find out what's what tomorrow and know where you stand as soon as possible.

You're in our thoughts, if there's anything we can do, let us know but I know there probably isn't other than keeping reading and talking to you and being there if and when you need us.

[bethanthepurple.livejournal.com]

Your plan is good plan.
x

[alisondh.livejournal.com]

Don't feel guilty. You need to look after yourself as well. It's not going to help your mum if you get overtired and stressed out.

*Hugs*

[b-liz.livejournal.com]

Exactly what I was going to say. *hugs*