My first gather and a meme (in which I also bitch about my illness for a change)

[lizziec]

Please note before I start that though it may not seem like it, I do not actually spend much time bitching about my depression, especially here.

I fucking hate my fucking illness. I woke up this morning in a good mood despite my inability to sleep properly (trouble getting to sleep and then staying asleep. 4am and I are becoming well aquainted and according to the pharmacy I can't have any over the counter drugs to help, so I guess I'd better speak to Dr K :/). I enjoyed the drive to my mum's (the weather was such that driving was really fun) where I abandoned Ben and then headed to my first CBB gather. Everyone was very nice and I had fun, but I came out ready to cry having made a really rather hasty getaway. I think I overdid it and to use a baraktaism (hopefully correctly) I think I just ran out of spoons at the end/did not have enough spoons to do what I was attempting to. Managed to calm down on the walk to the station and did not cry, but really really pissed with myself.

The gather itself was nice. People were lovely and I met lots of new people (everyone) who were all very welcoming and friendly and we ate lots of varied food (Lizzie-friendly rockyroad [no nuts :D], crispy cakes, sausage rolls [turns out there is such a thing as too many sausage rolls]) and lots of other stuff. I spent lots of time hiding behind a lovely large cushion cos I was freaked and talked too much about many things, lots of which probably weren't appropriate. Next time I shall try to be more Sotto ;) Played some games - the present game and an articulate type thing but with CBB words. The team I was on won, but that was largely down to the scary Chalet knowledge of Xanthe and Liss, then I ran away cos I was tired and getting panicky.

In all, it was really nice and I'd do it again, but maybe I should wait until I'm more betterer. Or something.

Have a meme I stole from greenfurrymoose. Ben also did it and is pretty much the exact opposite.

Your results:
You are Deanna Troi

Deanna Troi 80% An Expendable Character (Redshirt) 65% Beverly Crusher 55% Uhura 55% Geordi LaForge 50% Chekov 40% Leonard McCoy (Bones) 40% Spock 37% Jean-Luc Picard 35% Data 32% Will Riker 25% Mr. Scott 25% James T. Kirk (Captain) 20% Worf 15% Mr. Sulu 5%

You are a caring and loving individual. You understand people's emotions and you are able to comfort and counsel them.

Click here to take the "Which Star Trek character are you?" quiz...


Finally, and some of you know this already, Sue has asked me to be John's godmother and I said yes :D I am very proud and excited. It's even worth braving the incence of Catholic Church for! :)

Comments

[xanantha.livejournal.com]

Congratulations on the going-to-be-a-godmotherness...

And as for the Gather, it was splendid to meet you & the convermasation was not inappropriate - you fitted in very well indeed ;) Also, lack of spoons is a pants thing (own spoon shortage is why I am staying with Liss & Katie) but, if it helps, it certainly wasn't obvious, so you don't need to worry if you were thinking "argh what if they all thought I was just really weird and crap and argh!"

Depression is just grim. And frankly just upping & getting to the Gather is flipping impressive, especially with the not-knowing of people. And that is not meant to sound crap & patronising, but genuinely I-am-impressed. Oui.

Hopefully get to see you again :)

xx

[barakta]

There's also an argument for doing stuff that does use to many spoons, cos if you didn't you'd never do anything ever, or at least be severely restricted. Sometimes it's a case of do what you can, run away when you can't and rest afterwards - why else do you think I'm in Manchester this weekend, my possibly last 'reckless' spoons act for a while and opportunity (much needed) to see my mum...

I hope you're able to rest and respoon and hopefully your general spooned-ness will be higher.

[greenfurrymoose.livejournal.com]

yay for meme yoinking \o/ I think our top 4 were the same just in a different order - you get a better pic though!

*hugs*

[alisondh.livejournal.com]

*Lots of hugs* - sorry that I can't think of any constructive suggestions, but glad that you enjoyed the Gather.