So it's time to stop the cryptic stuff I think

[lizziec]

Some of you have expressed curiousity about what has been circling my head recently and I know there has been at least one conversation about my whereabouts on Sundays.

I'm pretty sure most of you know my background as a Mormon and my recent struggles to leave and try and free myself of some of the bitterness that events involving them gave me... Most recently this has lead me back to church.

For a while now (at least a month and a half) I've been studying the bible on my own (and with some help :)) and trying to work out how I feel...and this has led me to church to weeks in a row. And I'm going again next sunday.

I'm pretty sure now that I am a Christian...I believe in Jesus and God though I'm still having issues actually trusting in them to help me do what is best (hence why I only *think* I'm a christian)... the thing I went to last night was cell...and I have to say, I got *really* freaked and scared cos of all those people...I ran away upstairs for a time but made it all the way back down again by the end.

Anyway...that's it...and for witing it down I do feel strangely better...

I don't know where I'll end up eventually, but for now this is the place I'm at...and a very confusing place it is too...

Comments

[benc.livejournal.com]

*hug*

I thought as much. It's going to take time to get used to as any major change in your life will, but I hope things start to make sense for you soon :)

[phoenix-zephyr.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I respect you for your decision and hope that you find what you are searching for. Blessed be :)