Daddy (AKA, self pity post)

[lizziec]

There were times when I thought the hurt would never go away, and then suddenly I glance at the date and realise with a surprise that it's the 7th July and it would be daddy's 57th Birthday today.

I know I used to think about him every day but I'm not sure I do anymore, and when I do they're usually the "I wish he could be here for..." This has been especially potent the last month or so cos I've been planning wedding stuff. Most of the time when I look back at stuff now it's like I'm looking back at someone else. It's very odd. Most of the time the distance means there's no feelings at all.

Then sometimes, like this evening they hit again.

Oh yeah...I've been engaged 7 months yesterday but forgot about it. Was in canterbury with ben for it and that was nice.

Still no job btw.

So there you go...

P.S. Think it's hardware failure month or something...most people I know have had some piece of hardware go tits up. Mine was another hard disk.

Yay.

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/_jenjen_/]

*huggles lots and lots and lots*

I don't really have anything else to say, but I really do hope that things get better for you.

[pornqueenie.livejournal.com]

*hugs* honey
Hope u feel better soon
love
jen
xxxxxxxx

ps more hugs
xx

[0plato0.livejournal.com]

i know exaclty what you mean. particularly recently with leaving school and moving in with mark... i would have loved my dad to have seen it all happen. *lots of big big hugs*