Filtered (not mum): A bad day for us both (for different reasons)

[lizziec]

It's been a bad day for both mum and me today. She's had the nausea and vomiting and lack of energy that she's been getting frequently from what we now know is the tumour (though I don't know if it's the Primary, the Secondary or both making her like that), so she's spent most of the day asleep (and getting the sweats from the tramadol which the hospital gave her for the pain, which is just the crown on feeling crappy anyway, I would imagine).

On top of that, the hospital have yet to call and tell us when the MRI is going to be, so there's a fair bit of sitting around twiddling thumbs and I'm really struggling with that. When mum's downstairs, as she is a lot, because it's easier for her to breathe and whatnot when sitting in a comfy chair down there than in bed up here, she has the tv on to what she wants, and has the volume up fairly loud, so as a general rule I'm happier elsewhere. In addition, I want my own space very much and so because of all of these factors I've been hiding out in my room (who'd have thought that at 26 and married I would be saying that again?) most of today. I ache from sitting on a bed or a floor all day.

It's also Monday, so I'm furthest away from being home again, and even though it's a short week as far as being away from Ben is concerned, I miss him, and it feels like a very long time before I see him again. I miss our flat, I miss our gerbils, I miss home cooking, I miss our companionable silences.

I'm sorry for the whining, I truly am. I'm very low, mood-wise right now and I just need to vent before it gets too much.

On the upside, I did the computery part of a tesco order for mum (she told me what was needed and I did the typing and ordering of the things), so at least one good thing has been achieved today. And I just remembered that I also called about postal voting, so I suppose that's two. And hopefully tomorrow will be better.

ETA: 12/07/11 No longer filtered

Comments

[barakta]

Sorry to hear today's been not a good day - the waiting sounds vile! I hope they hurry up with a slot ASAP so you at least know when something happens next.

Are you at your mum's all week? Is there anything you can do about a laptop suitable chair/desk upstairs so you can hide without aching afterwards?

I'm happy to listen to your whining any time, you've got lots of justified reasons for whinig, I'd feel much the same way stranded at my mum's while things were so difficult.

Go you for doing useful and important stuff even when it's so hard. Thinking of you all.

[alisondh.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* - I wish I could think of something helpful to say.

[xanantha.livejournal.com]

Oh petal - I'm so SO sorry about all this.

I am free during lots of the day for the next couple of weeks & Croydon's not too far from me so if you want someone to talk to face-to-face about anything you want; someone to go for [not-]coffee with if you can leave your mum for that long; someone to stay with your mum a bit to let you go for a walk (if she'd be happy with that) just let me know. I know I don't know you specially well, but that doesn't mean I don't care.

Be gentle with yourself

xxx

[bethanthepurple.livejournal.com]

Sugar, you're having an absolutely rotten time at the moment, so whine all you need to if it helps.

Say if we can help any x

[mostlysilent.livejournal.com]

Dont apologise for "whining". It's your journal, you can say what you like, and it's not really whining if it's helping you deal with stuff. I know what it feels like to ache from hiding away in a bedroom all day.

Hope you get some answers soon. And I'd use my "someone needs a hug" icon but LJ won't let me upload it :( Going to blame the chrome browser, it hates trying to upload stuff.

[mrs-redboots.livejournal.com]

Listen, you are TOTALLY ALLOWED to whine - of course you're really unhappy just now! It is a horrible time for all of you, and desperately worrying for you. Once the doctors know how to treat your mother, and what exactly they're treating, it will be better, as at least someone will be Doing Something.

Such a shame you don't live near enough to go daily and at least have your evening meal at home with your husband, but at least you get to be with him at weekends.

[mrs-redboots.livejournal.com]

Also second xanatha's offer to meet up for a coffee, if you would like.