Filtered (not mum): The morning after

[lizziec]

Yesterday evening I spent most of my evening in a rather numb daze. It was sort of like shock, but not actually I think. I had a bit of a cry and then picked myself up and was just mostly quiet. Today I woke up feeling quite good, and then I remembered. Now I feel utterly arse and like the bottom has just dropped out of my world. I also think a herd of butterflies has taken up living in my tummy. I feel sick.

Mum's seeing the Neurologist today. She wants to see me later. I've decided I'll take stuff for a few days, then I can either stay there, or come home, as the situation warrants.

Thank you all for the good wishes yesterday. I daresay I'll keep this updated as stuff goes on. More to find out today.

ETA: 12/07/11 No longer filtered

Comments

[alisondh.livejournal.com]

Thinking of you and your mum. I hope the neurologist has some positive news about treatment options.

[trappermcintyre.livejournal.com]

Thanks :) Thoughts are always good.

[katherine-b.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear about your mum, having been through almost the same thing with mine 6-7 years ago (it's the reason I started this LJ). Let yourself feel bad and don't feel guilty or blame yourself, because everything you're going through now is as normal as such things get.

[trappermcintyre.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your lovely comment. It's really good to know that I'm not being some sort of broken reed by reacting the way I have/am.

[katherine-b.livejournal.com]

Nope, that's all very normal. Not nice, but completely normal.

I'm always here if you need more reassurance on that point. *snuggles*

[barakta]

Not surprised you feel strange and not good strange - it's a horrid initial diagnosis and very worrying - not knowing is worse than almost anything else cos of the whatifs.

I think it is a good idea for you to take stuff for a few days and allow yourself not to worry about plans and so on. Please give your mum my best wishes and you are all in my thoughts.

I hope the neurologist was helpful.

[trappermcintyre.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Your comments are always lovely and thoughtful, and really help me.