Today I had what my mother describes as a "black dog day"

[lizziec]

I believe she gets her cue on that from winston churchill.

Anyway, the day started off reasonably badly, with my bike still being a bit fux0red. My day seemed to just get worse. I took things out on people...first the kids then everyone I care about pretty much, with the exception of tiggs. I don't know how she escaped but I don't think even my mood coulda dampened her spirits.

Anyway, it was like being trapped in a big black cloud full of negativity and I couldn't get out. I wnated to cry adn be hugged tightly cos it felt like my insides wanted to explode outwardand I wanted to yell and scream and stuff...

Thing was, at the same time I couldn't bare to be touched or be around people and I wanted to be left alone, then I got even more upset and frustrated when they couldn't read my mind and know what i wanted. I was very mean to a good many people today, all of whom I care about muchly. It wasn't nice.

I started to improve once I started to cry, and it was rah who started *that* off. Once I was done with work I was just mortified at my day and how I'd been. i called mum. Like all great mums she *understood*

I can't tell you how good that felt.

I love my mummy


The faerie of water. You have a laid back attitude,
and take life as it comes. People come to you
when they want to hear the truth, even if it
hurts. You will always be there when someone
needs you. People sometimes think you have a
cold heart, that's why sometimes you can also
be known as the Ice Faerie.


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I am an Asteroid. I am a drifter. I go where life leads, which makes me usually a very calm and content sort of person. That or thoroughly apathetic. Usually I keep on doing whatever I'm doing, and it takes something special to make me change my mind. What Video Game Character Are You?

In other news, I finished my essay and it came in at 2,800ish words, which is a shocker cos I coulda written much more given more time. I rushed it at the end and so the last 1/5 is a bit crap, but..well, at least it's done.

Oh, kim's home...hiya kim :P

Now for more CSI and ben-sunggles. I need 'em, I'm feeeling rather down and drained still

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

What on earth did i do this time?

*ponders why lizzie still likes her when she seems to make her collapse in tears*

Re:

[slimeypete.livejournal.com]

Because that's what Lizzie needs, sometimes...?

[xmassheep.livejournal.com]

well hugs for the bad day. it happens to everyone and it seems to have been a particularly nasty one. just remember that everyone has them and everyone still loves you.
nice to know i was missed ;o)
and congrats on the essay, i'm sure it was fine. at least you did it properly *and* didnt have to get an extension either.

[morti.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I'm sorry you've had a bad day, but it looks like you're on the way up,. hope it continues. :)

[phoenix-zephyr.livejournal.com]

with the exception of tiggs. I don't know how she escaped but I don't think even my mood coulda dampened her spirits.

*grin* :P I asked if you were ok and you said you were even though i knew you weren't. I knew you were having a bad day so decided to leave you to get it out of your system, I know what it's like sometimes :P *hugs* anyway :P