Depression

[lizziec]

Okay, so some of you know that I have suffered from depression before, just over three years ago and recovered from it ok. Well since January of this year I have been having similar symptoms and I went and saw my doctor again and was once again diagnosed as suffering from depression.

I am on Citalopram and seeing a counsellor to do some stuff on CBT, anxiety management stuff and assertiveness training. I have been told that I need to look after myself mentally more and that includes not working at the moment. I was signed off for six weeks at the end of my contract with CCS and I have just tried working again at Clearing and the two weeks work have utterly wiped me out. I'm left feeling that I wish there were some physical illness that would show other people why I am so tired, but there isn't. I don't think I'll be working again for a while, certainly not before November I suspect.

I don't know why I am writing this to be honest. I haven't said anything before because I haven't want to worry anyone or become a burden or whatever and also because I have needed to come to terms with it myself, and it has taken rather a long time for this to happen. I'm not after *hugs* or anything, I just wanted to be honest with all of you about the place I am in my life right now.

So now you know.

Comments

[alisondh.livejournal.com]

Sending hugs even though you said you weren't after them! My mum suffers from depression and it does just "come back" sometimes. Hope that the medication and the counselling help. Look after yourself.

Alison x

Meds suck donkey dong. Untreated crazy sucks syphilitic donkey dong with a hot poker up your arse...

[bethanthepurple.livejournal.com]

Thing is babe, depression is a physical illness caused by imbalances of chemicals in the brain. Meds help us cope with those imbalances in the same way crutches help someone with a sprained ankle or a wheelchair someone with muscle wastage. Granted, they're clunky and annoying and life would be better if you didn't need them in the first place, but having meds, crutches, or a wheelchair is pretty much essential to cope if you have the physical fuckup in the first place.

And you'll never be a burden. Sorry I haven't visited for so long. Take the time you need, come crash whenever you want (I have chicken pie in the freezer).

Re: Meds suck donkey dong. Untreated crazy sucks syphilitic donkey dong with a hot poker up your ars

[bethanthepurple.livejournal.com]

Didn't mean to use such a hideously chirpy icon. Here, have a face of understanding...

[red-pill.livejournal.com]

and knowing is half the battle

sorry, i had to.

[barakta]

Diabetes and epilepsy are mostly invisible and also like depression can be very variable in how much they are noticable to those around you.

I have good friends who speak highly of CBT and other structural changes to how you think of yourself therapies alongside good old fashioned pharmaceuticals. These can take a while to work and I'm a big believer in any illness of taking time to recover and then some to build up some strength as well as 'just get by'.

*cup of tea*

[no1typo.livejournal.com]

you know I understand, It was after all you who rescued me from behind the fridge-freezer. You will come out from behind yours and We will plan a thelma and Louise to Goole, 2 batty women with a suitcase full of tablets. ( I may wear purple with a red hat that doesn't suit me), and we will go to Pizza hut in York and read books, and walk on the river bank to the seaman's memorial, and eat ice cream in a sea fret at Scarborough and then dry your skirt on the car heater while you sit in the back in you knickers and a tee shirt.

Remember All will be well all will be well and all manner of things will be well.

Mamma loves you

[ex-claire-t.livejournal.com]

Want coffee / lunch this week? :o)

Depression in *medically proven* to have a number of physical side effects; tiredness (often extreme), lowered immunity, migranes etc. Its absolutely normal to be feeling so tired and its often your body's very good way of telling you that it needs rest and time off to help you heal, both mentally and physically. Keep talking to friends, your doctor and your MH nurse, keep telling us how you are and keep telling yourself that none of this is your fault :o)

And you're very welcome to come over to our place anytime and pet Oscar.... studies have showed that stroking a pet is as effective as some antidepressants, and Oscar has a huge lot of love to share :o)