Dont apologise for "whining". It's your journal, you can say what you like, and it's not really whining if it's helping you deal with stuff. I know what it feels like to ache from hiding away in a bedroom all day.

Hope you get some answers soon. And I'd use my "someone needs a hug" icon but LJ won't let me upload it :( Going to blame the chrome browser, it hates trying to upload stuff.